WEDNESDAY
was such an emotional day. From crying to shock then to nostalgic. I never feel so much emotions in a day before.

Cried in school not because others accidentally hit me with their paper balls. Although it hurts because it scratched me but the main reason i started sobbing to myself is because i hate being irritated and sometimes when i get furious, i cry.

Yes, i can scold people until i break down. But thats when im really really really mad. When im angry, i just keep on yelling my lungs off. So, i was crying to myself while composing this stupid song that Mr Leung created:

I'm feeling tired and i ain't in the mood for school.
Yeah, I'm feeling tired and i got the blues for school.
I guess I'll lie down and forget about my woes.

Wth -.- I was feeling so lousy about my class and i have to compose this at the same time. I was feeling a bit better when Benita came and hug me from the back.

The thing is, i dont like people crowding around me when im feeling down because they'll only remind me what pathetic state im in, no matter what. And so, from sobbing to myself, i had to lie on the table and began wailing my heart out.

Its not Benita's fault and i appreciate her kindness but the way she talked to me makes me feel worser. Finally, i stopped crying. And yes, thanks for offering to sing your "ji ji bom bom" song for me, Darren Eng.

And from gloomy, i went directly to shock when i heard from sources that, lets name it A, hates me. Worse still, the reason is shitty. That day, we were doing group work and my group was talking. I had no choice but to do it with my other friends.

When i went up to paste it on the board, A (whom i know felt sorry that we have to do everything) came up and offered help. At that time, i was busy (and i thought that she would like to talk to her friends more) so i just anyhow wave at her and said no. I know its a bit rude so i turned to smile a bit but A was already walking away.

I didnt even know i offended A until today and i was so shock that she hated me. For example, i tell you something and if you make no signs of not understanding, i will just go on and talk more about it instead of stopping and repeating my point.

So, how would i know A is angry at me if A dont tell me about it? Besides, its a misunderstanding, a misinterpretation and you want me to apologise about it? Even if i do, what shall i say if A was to re butt "Sorry no cure" kind of stuff?

I feel terrible after hearing this news but you know what? Now i dont feel terrible when i know A hates me. After all, there are many who hate A too. So why should i even bother about what you think about me when your character is not worth my respect?

I dont like people hating me without a reason or for some kind of stupid excuse. I dont care if you give me the cold treatment or whatsoever. But if your target is on me, i have no choice but to defend myself.

By the end of the day, when i was talking to Alicia on the bus about primary school, i felt so nostalgic. I told her that on last Sunday, i went to see my primary 1 class photo. Although she wasnt there, i saw many of whom lasted through 1H to 6H with me. And i was so much taller than the guys!

But now, Ibtisham and Adiman (Is that how you spell their names?) are wayyyyy taller. I walked with them home on Monday, i think and they kept on lying to me and i actually believed them -.- PW saw one of them on Thurs and she was shock at the way Adiman was acting. LOLS!

We were also talking about the rest who werent with us from 1H. I suddenly remembered that my primary 1 photo dont have Aloysiaus leh! I cant find him at all. Did he transfer or something? So when i alighted from the bus, i was in a daze thinking about my past when someone called me.

Turns out to be Prico. Its been 2 years since i last met her and she hadnt change a single bit! All her features are still there. Lols, heard that she is 175 cm tall now? Giant girl!

THURSDAY
experienced blackout in tuition centre. I was writing some log question when suddenly i could only see my pink pencil. Really, i couldnt even see my hands. After my eyes adjusted to the darkness, the teacher came back with a candle.

Everybody take out hand phone to shine and the guys were really lame.

"Never pay electricity fees ar?!"
"Mas Selemat coming to bomb us!"

-.- Speechless. SMSed Xingxuan and by the time i wanted to sms to Peiwen, the lights came back. But the stupid air-con refused to work so all of us went back home half an hour earlier. Teacher say will have makeup class soon. )):

FRIDAY
was tiring. Because of speech day rehearsal, i went off early. Alicia and i went to WS to eat. But i only eat mango ice kachang because theres nothing that attracts me. Talked about her class and managed to pick up many gossips which i promised not to tell. After all, Alicia knows that i am not a blabbermouth.

Alicia is forever an information counter. It must be fun to be her even though she keeps on complaining about her life. Lols.

Reach school at 3.30pm and saw the CIO members with their costumes! Super funny, can? Slacked awhile before going for CCA. I so badly wanted to sleep but on Monday assembly need to perform so must buck up.

Sighs*
Alien society, over and out.

The fridge is a clear example that what matters is what's inside.