Daddy just bought supper from McDonald's just now. And all of us gather at the living room to eat. While i was eating, i thought really, really hard. And i realised that i cant remember when was the last time all of us ate together.
Even if all of us were at home, we never sit at the dining room to have a meal together, properly. And it dawned upon me that i hardly spent any time with my family, especially my daddy.
If you ask me to describe him, i can only come up with words like,
tall, short hair, a male? I just cant describe him in details. So while i was munching my burger, i look at his features and saw many, many wrinkles.
My dad has aged a lot.
Suddenly, he seem so old, fragile and well, old. Being the head of my family, he has to work twice as hard as us to put bread on the table. And because of this point, he hardly has any time for himself.
And i feel so guilty because of my results. I
didnt even show him my report book yet. At first, i was like,
aiya never mind la! My classmates also scored such results what? But now, its a total different matter.
All this stuff leads to things i did with my sister when we were young. We would get up from bed around midnight, stood at the balcony and watch our neighbours doing stuff. Occasionally, we would point out the cars passing by or the
undaunting stars in the deep blue sky.
I miss such small, small events. I hardly see my sister (except at night) because of school and somehow, because we
didnt spend time together, we have very few things to talk to each other.
I miss my childhood. I miss being an innocent child. Most of all, i miss my family. Mum is always doing housework and going to work, Dad is always either glued to the com or is working or is sleeping while my sister is either watching TV, using com or doing homework.
All of us are leading different lives. I wish we would start spending more times together. Why are Singaporeans so busy? Why cant all of us just for once stop what they are doing, look around and appreciate the simple things of life?
Maybe when i grow older, i will migrate to like Australia because its so calm there. Everything is so relaxing. The best place for a happy childhood.
