Was supposed to blog this yesterday but the internet connection suddenly died on me and no matter what i did to it, it simply refuses to work.
I did a friendship test yesterday. The diagnosis was long but in short, i was the happy friend who always lend people shoulders to cry on. The bad thing about it is that i tend to be stress about people complaining/crying to me and that i can hardly find anyone else to lean on (since everyone is depending on me). It was something like that.
Which was kinda true. I mean, i guess im living a perfect life right now (excluding my results). I have many friends, i do not have friends who badmouth/betray me, i do not have any family problems, or any problems, actually. So when people are feeling down i would sympathise with them since i already have it all and in the long run, i do not have anyone to lean on because people are relying on me.
Which is kind of sad and true. Sometimes when i am feeling blue, i just keep all to myself and just plaster a fake smile. I never cry in school and i never cry in front of anyone else (except family but some of them didnt too.) and that includes my besties. I never complained about how imperfect my life is or whatsoever simply because i have no one to complain to.
Itsnt that scary? I have so many friends and yet none of them had seen me cry. Maybe im used to it. At home, i never cry in front of my parents/sister (except for those touching dramas) ever since i grew up. And when i cry, i hid my tears away or i would only cry on my bed. This is such a bad thing and i feel so sad for myself. After rereading this post, i realised that i do have someone to complain to. That is my blog! Lols.
Okay, this is the end of this long, draggy, boring post.
PS i cut my hair. And even though i can still tie my hair, its sooooo short!! Nvm, im going to grow it with all the fertilisers and stuff. Haha.
PPS I agree with people saying that they dont like my uncheerful side. I also dislike it but you know, girls are like that. When i feel blue, i tend to show it even though i know it affects the people around me and i should be listening to all the positive comments. When this happens just let me be on my own, really.
PPPS okay, i know this is the third time but it is also the last time! I always thought that the boys in my class are cool. Not
cool cool but as in they wont do lame and stupid stuff. Guess i was wrong because i read _______'s blog and the pictures of the guys are super funny and lame. Sorry but i cant help laughing!
