WHY ARE YOU SO MEAN TO ME?
[Please take note that i have changed all names]This spark my interest in it since Wednesday. Obviously, Tricia told me that she was bullied. It doesnt seem so, at least to me. She just shrug off ALL jokes that were on her. Wednesday, she bought this newspaper because she wanted to read an article on bullies. I took it and browse through. When i got home and read her blog, she wrote that she CRIED before meeting me. This is really serious i tell ya!
I told Tricia that i have NEVER been bullied before. I didnt remember any cases at that time. But when i got home and think about it, i did get bully before. 94% of us are bullied at least once. If you have not, congrats yourself.
My bullying started when i was in Primary 5. Oh no, nobody treated me badly at school. It was at my tuition centre. That time, i was new to the class. The only person i knew there was Amy. I didnt quite like her but i had no choice.
She treated me like her maid. I was stupid enough to follow what she says. Now, thinking back, its really foolish of me. I should have break all ties with her. But i didnt because i was so afraid of being alone, without any friends. Dont ask why - its a long story.
Amy was very cruel. There was this girl, who always got laughed at. Amy wanted to be popular and always try to avoid people like her. However, she stick with that girl because she has money. One day, Amy decided that she was not worth it and left me and that girl. She left me alone and i shall hate her for that. Amy make me feel that i was not good enough to be her friends. All name teasing starts.
Primary 6 came. I had enough of Amy's torture and decided to make new friends. I got to know a girl named Desiree. And i made friends with Jennifer. I thought they were very nice. I never expected that they would ganged up on me. Somehow, they got closer. I didnt mind that. As long they still treat me as their friend.
I remember the day that i hated them was during English lessons. We just got back from our break and Jennifer bought a packet of twister. The three of us sat at the back and tried to open the packet. It was useless. Finally, Desiree opened the packet and both of them shared it. Yes, just both of them. Desiree made up a lame excuse saying that she opened it and thus can eat while i, on the other hand, did nothing so i had no rights to eat. I shrugged it off. I didnt really want to eat anyway. So, i went back to do my work. Suddenly, Jennifer threw a handful of twister on my table, my paper and ME while saying: "These are for you." before turning to sniggle with Desiree.
I was so upset that i almost cried. I have lost contact with them since the end of that year. Not that i want to see them anyway. Nobody knew that i was bullied - i didnt tell anyone because i wanted to kept my friends. But only now did i realised that even if i dont tell anyone, they will not be my friends. They have decided that.
I totally forgot about the incidents as now, i am a very happy girl. I have the friends that anyone would die for my family is quite nice and i have ALMOST everything i wanted.
Back to Tricia. Okay, she is a little fat but still chio so why does boys like to tease her? Calling people fatso and ah pui is not very nice. As if you are perfect!
Look at the mirror and look at your refletion.If you see perfection, try to see that in others too.If you see yourself and others as imperfect,forgive yourself and the others.Tsk. Those boys should go on CME lessons. Heh!
UPDATED:
Why are people so good to me? Yes, i have been bullied before but somehow, others are putting in effort to make my day better.
For instance, today morning. I was walking by a carpark while a man was walking towards it. He kept staring at me, making me feel unease.
He walked past me and a few seconds later, he turned around and asked me:"You going to Pasir Ris right?"
I nodded my head, too surprised to say anything. He beckoned me and walked into the carpark.
I was stunned. I didnt know what to do. What if he is a baddie? Oh dear...Yes, yes i was hesitating. Im not sure what to do. When we were in primary school, teachers have already taught you NOT to accept rides from strangers. But i didnt want to offend the man
That's when a girl, wearing the same uniform as i am, walked past me. Wave of relief rushed over me. I knew that its safe. I mean he is sending daughter is going to school too!
The girl was not panicky when she saw me. She even open the car door for me as if its a normal thing to do. Maybe her father always give out rides to strangers?
Had a free ride to school =)
See? Even though there are people ill-treating you, there are also people who go all the way to make you feel better. It just that you dont see it. I think there will be a balanced of bad and good people around you. Perhaps its karma? Who knows?
