I hate being sick and how i sound. Why cant i just get well?
I am happy. Really and truly. However, there are so many people around me who are way emo. Because of friends? Bullying? Whatever. In any case, my friends are feeling down and that affects me.
Sure, i do my best comforting them. Cheer them up, give them advice. However, how many listened? They feel that we cannot relate to them, unable to understand them, no solutions to their problems. Its sad to say that i have no solutions. But im able to relate to them, given that my expriences taught me so.
Lets talk about friendship today. Since i am done with bullying. If you still refuse to see my point, i am sorry but thats the best i can do.
No matter what you say or feel, there are always people in states that are worser than you. When i was in Primary 1, the school assigned me to a buddy. This senior was supposed to be with you throughout the whole term, making sure that you are used to the school. I rarely talk to my buddy but i remembered that before the term ended, she had already abandoned me. This totally crushed my confidence in making friends.
Because of that incident, i shut myself out. I was afraid to make friends, worried that they will leave me. I do have people to sit with during recess. I do talk to them. But never confide my secrets and how i felt. Even if i wanted a friend, who they accept me?
By the time i reached Primary 4, i totally lost all hope and stop believing in miracles. They do not happen. At least, not in my life.
Finally, it happened. I met my best friend at the last day of school in Primary 4. We were in the computer lab. She was one of the people who sat with me during recess but i hardly talk to her considering the fact that she has so many friends surrounding her, making it impossible to get her attention. But the first time we really spoke, we hit off immediately.
Primary 5 came and through her(Xinyi), i met Yiling. She was so cheerful that it is impossible to dislike her. At that time, Sihui just transfered into our class with Alicia (Is it?) The first impression she gave us was that she is a girly-girl. From the way she sits, she look very 'high-class' She was our classmate but we rarely speak to her.
One day in Primary 6, she sat with us during recess. Someone had made her sad and angry. We felt sorry for her as it seems like a case of betrayer. And, taa-daa, the foursome is born =)
Yiling the funny and cheerful one. Everything seems to bright and cheerful to her. I will usually go to her for great advice.
Sihui the fashion queen. Shes more of a rebel. Even though some of us think its weird, sometimes it seems cool to me although there are times when i disagree. Her motto in life is probably:
Live dangerously! Xinyi the oh-so-gullible and innocent girl. I can burst out laughing because shes so naive but it irritates me at times too. She likes anime and shes good to talk with, as long as she dont watch her shows.
Me? Probably the spoilt one (x
They boost my confidence alot. They are my best friends because...
1) We do not find fun, fun just come along.
2) They accept the real me.
3) They love me for who i am
We are bonded forever =)I will treasure you guys forever.
If such a young girl can survived through 4 years if emtiness and had no hope at all, so can you!
After a huge storm, a beautiful rainbow will be shown. The bigger the storm is, the more beautiful the rainbow will be. You dont see the rainbow with your eyes. You feel it with your heart. The rainbow, no doubt, will be one of the best thing you ever felt in life. Just hang on and it will happen. Have faith in yourself and you will succeed.Anyway, the meaning of this post is, even if you do not believe in miracles or dreams, they still come true, Rock on people!
No matter what, you still have people who care for you =)