Tuesday, April 24, 2007 @ 7:57 PM
SYF 2007
Today was Guzheng SYF. So nervous! We report in room at 11.30. Skiped DnT lessons. =D Anyway, reached guzheng room we went to tie our hair. Yes, that freaking hairstyle =( So ugly. Half a ponytail and two plaits. However, it looked okay in the end =) Makeup was scary. Foundation first. I almost choked to death. Then, Charmaine helped me to put on eyeliner. It HURTS okay? The pen poke into my eyeball =((( Applied mascara. It felt...weird. I mean, your eyelid feels heavy. Clip my eyelashes next. It hurts too. Because the mascara sticked onto the clippers and when she open it, my eyelashes almost tore. For the sake of Gold, we even put hairspary. SHINY!!!
Practised a little bit before leaving for SCH. Ngee Ann was in front of us and they were very good. Lucky there was an interval. There were too many guzhengs so we had to split into two groups when we took the lift up. It was the interval time so we need not take our timing for putting and taking our guzhengs. Blessing in disguise? Yea right! Because i was the only person in the second row to go up first, i did not know where to place my guzheng. So i left it at the very first place. Went backstage where we talk excitedly.
We finally began to perform. I thought it was great. But when we walked out, my leader was very disapointed. Then, i saw this girl crying. Went over to find out what happened. Turns out that there was a gap in the middle of second row. Want to know why? Because it was my fault. I should not have left my guzheng at the first position. I should be at the second position. I felt so bad. I had made a mistake. I mean, playing the wrong notes we could not help. But this mistake? The girl kept on crying. I felt so bad. Its all my fault. Began to have tears in my eyes too. Did not cried out. If not, there will be two black streams down my cheeks. They told me not to blame myself as the person should have moved up when they saw a gap. So, i finally felt better.
We heard the rest of the schools playing. And it was the time for results. The emcee kept on thanking all organisations and judges. The list was way long. All of us groaned. Finally, the results came out. We got Sliver. I had expected it. For some reason, only the seniors cried. NJC got Gold with honors. We were all like: They have conductor still have drums bells and everything! Might as well go join CIO!
Slept in the bus. I was WAY too tired.
Reached school at about 6.40pm. Saw Shirleen. I was about to walk away when Ms. Low pulled me aside and talk to me. I did not really hear much and do not remember much too. All that i know its that she was talking about the placing of guzhengs and that next SYF i was supposed to remind the others. We should not get the positionings wrong because she placed the paper of where we should sit at at the notice board.
There are only two conclusions to what she had told me.
a) I am the reason why we got Sliver
b) I will probably be one of the leaders in some group.
However, when we began walking, she said: Of course i will not tell anyone.
Only based on this sentence, im guessing its a).
I felt so bad, so guilty. She made it sounds that if i did not get the placing wrong, we would have got Gold. Not that i doubt though. It was all my fault. Felt like crying all over again. Ms. Low is so scary. The tone and the expression is enough to scare the soul out of you!
I am so sorry to all Guzheng`ers. Its all my fault. I hope you guys will not blame me. After all the hard work, we only got Sliver - just because of one stupid mistake i made.
Went home with my costume. I was in no mood to change and kept complaining to Shirleen as we walked to Central. Must as well buy Bubble Tea to cool me down. And Shirleen? She never once complained that i kept babbling on and on and on. If it was me, i probably blow up.
The mascara is so hard to take off! Its dried, sticking onto my eyelashes. I give up. I will asked my mum to take it off for me when she gets home. Can you believe it? Its my first time wearing mascara!
Blehs! ><
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