Sunday, April 29, 2007 @ 4:06 PM
Long and boring day
Long and boring day
"I wonder why does malays have their wedding under HDB flats?"
Not that im looking down on them or anything. But today, there is this malay wedding. It was fine at first but suddenly, there were drum beats and they go"RAH! OI! OI!" Questions marks were popping up on my head as i raised one of my eyebrows and looked at my sister. She rolled her eyes and continued reading her book. Whatever.
Spent half of my day reading books. If i dont read them now, i probably will never. I don even feel like doing homework. Did Maths Paper 1 though. It was damn freaking easy i tell you! And it was from River Valley High. YAY!! At this rate, i probably ace my exams x)). So yeah, thats about my day. The following post will be random and it has NOTHING to do with my happenings today. So yeah, if you want to stop reading, thats fine. =)
Lately, i find that there are many emo people surrounding me. First of all, my cousin. Her blog posts were mainly her being emo. I feel so sad for her. Thats not how a teenager should spend her life! We are still kids - admit it - Instead of fretting over bullshit problems, we should learn, live, laugh. I mean, thats what life is, isn't it? Some people feel emo because they just do. Im one of those kind. If im hyper, im hyper. Im down means im down. No questions asked. This is how i express my feelings. This is me. You dont see me half-hyper, half-emo! Its either this or that. Uh-huh.
Next was Shirleen's turn after my cousin managed to get back onto her feet =) Shirleen was upset over her SYF results. Her eyes were pratically red from crying! I understand that without GOLD, nobody in our school will be satisfied with our results. Im not satisfied with my results either! But then, you dont see me crying. I expressed it in another way instead. I was complaining how unfair the judges were and scolding them (ask Shirleen about it) =x Hope they never come to my blog. Except that, WHO COMES TO MY BLOG BESIDES THOSE PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME?? So yeah, no worries =D
My aunt, Samantha. Except that i don't call her aunt because she so YOUNG! Shes like 18? Anyway, yesterday we talked on MSN. She told me that she broke up with her stead. I was like why??? Because i think they look good together and that she is very happy with him. Samantha said that he does not want a long term relationship and is not into commitment. And yeah, she did cry and is feeling emo now. =( I never ever seen her cry before. I mean, i don't see her very often but she has always strike me as a very strong woman. Everyone likes hanging out with her. I remembered that when we were young, me and my cousins were always fighting for her attention because she is so nice. She is definetly very popular amongst us. Its sad to hear such a tragic news. Awww...But i bet she will be over it no time. Because, thats how she is in my mind. Samantha will get over it and Samantha will be strong again. You can do it! =DD
The miracle is, Samantha told me that she went to my blog and loved the song. I guess she its because she can relate to it. Which is why i froze in my tracks at that time. I was in imeem.com searching for new songs. Right at that moment, i decided not to change my song. I guess emo people would like to listen to it?
LETS US CONTINUE WITH RANDOM POSTINGS. I BET ALICIA WOULD LIKE TO READ THIS VERY MUCH =)
In every girl's life, there will be this boy who would change her life completely. For me, it happened during Primary 6. This is no new rumors and Alicia can spread all she wants. Because, all my besties already know and had accepted it. The boy who changed my whole life was, Joshua Hay. I know, Alicia, i know. Its stupid and lame, i have to add. I cant really think of why i would like him in the first place! Why execpt maybe i used to think that he is shuaii. Anyway, the first time he walked into 6H classroom, i had a real bad feeling about him. He is a rebel and he had to sit in front of me =.=
Anyway, one day, cupid strikes and poof* well, you should know. So yeah, basically, i started changing because of him. Blahblahblah. The usual happens. And then, i had to listen to my best friend confessing that she liked him too! I was hurt, yeah real hurt. Because to me, my best friends are my EVERYTHING. Without them, there will never be the talkative, chit-chatty SiQi . My best friends were the ones who ripped off my shy and quiet mask, revealing my lively and all-smiles side. I never knew i had this side at all! So basically, I LOVE THEM TO BITS!
I was upset when i found out both of us had liked the same person. I think, it was the very first, true love that we had. Even if it was not to her, it was to me. I admit it out loud(even though its not how i feel now) that i once liked him SO damn much. She admitted her crush to me but i did not do the same. Selfish, you may say. But i don't want to see her in the same dilemma as im in. No, i can never bear to see her upsetting the same way as i am. So i did not tell her anything. I accompanied her to his house almost everyday. Thats where the nickname started.
He kept on calling me 47 because my name sounds like it in chinese. I got fed up and call him 4618. Thats the only number that can relate to him because its his house's number. #04-618. I was the one who created this nickname for him and it got stuck. Pretty soon, all of my besties were calling him 4618. Oh man, what days we had!
Life is not, and will never be a bed of roses, i often read. As surprisingly as it sounds, it is ture - for me. I finally told my best friend that i liked him too. She was shocked. Because i had kept the secret so well. We decided that this boy is not worth it to break our friendship. Our friendship, although it was new (We were not really best friends until P5) but we treasure it alot! It was very precious to us, to all my sisters. (Yeah, i had sisters in primary school already). We were bonded together so, both of us promised that we would forget about this boy.
Which is damn freaking hard! I spent months and months trying not to talk to him, avoid him. Finally, (And somehow) my love turns to like which turns to dislike and finally HATE. Yes, i hated him when im finally clear headed to see that HE IS A FLIRT! Not am i the only victim, many girls are too! He had broken lots of friendship between girls and my friends and i are the few lucky ones who managed to see through his stupid act. I was glad that me and my friends overcome this test and we took it as our relationship has gotten much stronger! I have to thank my besties for being by my side throughout all rough times. But the past is the past. I do not hate him neither do i like him now. He was my first true (love???) and even though i don't like him, i have to thank him for proving that SIQI IS NOT A LESBIAN!!! Hahas...You see, i have not lose my sense of humor =D
Even though i do not like him now, the damage that he had done will remain forever scarred. He was the one who make me go boy crazy. I never thought of boys as boyfriends, just pals. But after he came into my life, a new chapter begins and i began to noticed boys. Am i a late developer or what? Because i seriously think i am ><>
I don't think i will meet another guy like him. He was the first boy to change me and i don't think there will be any follow-ups. So yeah, if you want to look at his picture, here it is.
(I took it from my friend's blog. I hope she does not blame me or anything =x)
I seriously believe in: Forgetting things are ALWAYS harder than remembering things. I truly believe in this sentence. But for some reasons, it does not apply to me forgetting about Joshua Hay. Because there was this time where i TOTALLY forgot how he got his nickname, 4618, until my friend reminded me that it was ME who created it for him.
I have truly forgotten about him at that time =)
And believe me, i call that a victory!
Not that im looking down on them or anything. But today, there is this malay wedding. It was fine at first but suddenly, there were drum beats and they go"RAH! OI! OI!" Questions marks were popping up on my head as i raised one of my eyebrows and looked at my sister. She rolled her eyes and continued reading her book. Whatever.
Spent half of my day reading books. If i dont read them now, i probably will never. I don even feel like doing homework. Did Maths Paper 1 though. It was damn freaking easy i tell you! And it was from River Valley High. YAY!! At this rate, i probably ace my exams x)). So yeah, thats about my day. The following post will be random and it has NOTHING to do with my happenings today. So yeah, if you want to stop reading, thats fine. =)
Lately, i find that there are many emo people surrounding me. First of all, my cousin. Her blog posts were mainly her being emo. I feel so sad for her. Thats not how a teenager should spend her life! We are still kids - admit it - Instead of fretting over bullshit problems, we should learn, live, laugh. I mean, thats what life is, isn't it? Some people feel emo because they just do. Im one of those kind. If im hyper, im hyper. Im down means im down. No questions asked. This is how i express my feelings. This is me. You dont see me half-hyper, half-emo! Its either this or that. Uh-huh.
Next was Shirleen's turn after my cousin managed to get back onto her feet =) Shirleen was upset over her SYF results. Her eyes were pratically red from crying! I understand that without GOLD, nobody in our school will be satisfied with our results. Im not satisfied with my results either! But then, you dont see me crying. I expressed it in another way instead. I was complaining how unfair the judges were and scolding them (ask Shirleen about it) =x Hope they never come to my blog. Except that, WHO COMES TO MY BLOG BESIDES THOSE PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME?? So yeah, no worries =D
My aunt, Samantha. Except that i don't call her aunt because she so YOUNG! Shes like 18? Anyway, yesterday we talked on MSN. She told me that she broke up with her stead. I was like why??? Because i think they look good together and that she is very happy with him. Samantha said that he does not want a long term relationship and is not into commitment. And yeah, she did cry and is feeling emo now. =( I never ever seen her cry before. I mean, i don't see her very often but she has always strike me as a very strong woman. Everyone likes hanging out with her. I remembered that when we were young, me and my cousins were always fighting for her attention because she is so nice. She is definetly very popular amongst us. Its sad to hear such a tragic news. Awww...But i bet she will be over it no time. Because, thats how she is in my mind. Samantha will get over it and Samantha will be strong again. You can do it! =DD
The miracle is, Samantha told me that she went to my blog and loved the song. I guess she its because she can relate to it. Which is why i froze in my tracks at that time. I was in imeem.com searching for new songs. Right at that moment, i decided not to change my song. I guess emo people would like to listen to it?
LETS US CONTINUE WITH RANDOM POSTINGS. I BET ALICIA WOULD LIKE TO READ THIS VERY MUCH =)
In every girl's life, there will be this boy who would change her life completely. For me, it happened during Primary 6. This is no new rumors and Alicia can spread all she wants. Because, all my besties already know and had accepted it. The boy who changed my whole life was, Joshua Hay. I know, Alicia, i know. Its stupid and lame, i have to add. I cant really think of why i would like him in the first place! Why execpt maybe i used to think that he is shuaii. Anyway, the first time he walked into 6H classroom, i had a real bad feeling about him. He is a rebel and he had to sit in front of me =.=
Anyway, one day, cupid strikes and poof* well, you should know. So yeah, basically, i started changing because of him. Blahblahblah. The usual happens. And then, i had to listen to my best friend confessing that she liked him too! I was hurt, yeah real hurt. Because to me, my best friends are my EVERYTHING. Without them, there will never be the talkative, chit-chatty SiQi . My best friends were the ones who ripped off my shy and quiet mask, revealing my lively and all-smiles side. I never knew i had this side at all! So basically, I LOVE THEM TO BITS!
I was upset when i found out both of us had liked the same person. I think, it was the very first, true love that we had. Even if it was not to her, it was to me. I admit it out loud(even though its not how i feel now) that i once liked him SO damn much. She admitted her crush to me but i did not do the same. Selfish, you may say. But i don't want to see her in the same dilemma as im in. No, i can never bear to see her upsetting the same way as i am. So i did not tell her anything. I accompanied her to his house almost everyday. Thats where the nickname started.
He kept on calling me 47 because my name sounds like it in chinese. I got fed up and call him 4618. Thats the only number that can relate to him because its his house's number. #04-618. I was the one who created this nickname for him and it got stuck. Pretty soon, all of my besties were calling him 4618. Oh man, what days we had!
Life is not, and will never be a bed of roses, i often read. As surprisingly as it sounds, it is ture - for me. I finally told my best friend that i liked him too. She was shocked. Because i had kept the secret so well. We decided that this boy is not worth it to break our friendship. Our friendship, although it was new (We were not really best friends until P5) but we treasure it alot! It was very precious to us, to all my sisters. (Yeah, i had sisters in primary school already). We were bonded together so, both of us promised that we would forget about this boy.
Which is damn freaking hard! I spent months and months trying not to talk to him, avoid him. Finally, (And somehow) my love turns to like which turns to dislike and finally HATE. Yes, i hated him when im finally clear headed to see that HE IS A FLIRT! Not am i the only victim, many girls are too! He had broken lots of friendship between girls and my friends and i are the few lucky ones who managed to see through his stupid act. I was glad that me and my friends overcome this test and we took it as our relationship has gotten much stronger! I have to thank my besties for being by my side throughout all rough times. But the past is the past. I do not hate him neither do i like him now. He was my first true (love???) and even though i don't like him, i have to thank him for proving that SIQI IS NOT A LESBIAN!!! Hahas...You see, i have not lose my sense of humor =D
Even though i do not like him now, the damage that he had done will remain forever scarred. He was the one who make me go boy crazy. I never thought of boys as boyfriends, just pals. But after he came into my life, a new chapter begins and i began to noticed boys. Am i a late developer or what? Because i seriously think i am ><>
I don't think i will meet another guy like him. He was the first boy to change me and i don't think there will be any follow-ups. So yeah, if you want to look at his picture, here it is.
(I took it from my friend's blog. I hope she does not blame me or anything =x)
I seriously believe in: Forgetting things are ALWAYS harder than remembering things. I truly believe in this sentence. But for some reasons, it does not apply to me forgetting about Joshua Hay. Because there was this time where i TOTALLY forgot how he got his nickname, 4618, until my friend reminded me that it was ME who created it for him.
I have truly forgotten about him at that time =)
And believe me, i call that a victory!
